I've rewritten this post a few times and have decided I just need to press publish and be done with it.
This is the final post on Sweet Nothings. I have thought long and hard about the whys, but I just cannot commit to this blog anymore.
Long story short, I'm broken. I'm more lost and confused than when I was 18, 22, 25.. I can't seem to make a good decision, or figure out what I am supposed to be doing. And I feel terrible leaving this community and the people who have been a part of my life for the last 4+ years.
I need to go and do me. Figure out what I am and who I am and who I will allow to be a part of the journey. I've been neglecting the close circle of friends I have and I have probably been a terrible employee. My health is deteriorating..I haven't slept in a month, and when I do, I have terrible nightmares. I've pushed people away who don't deserve it, and beg others who have no place in my life to stay. I've cried so much, I ignore what the tears mean. It's just a reflex these days, at times, I don't even realize it is happening, but tears will just be streaming down my face at my desk. I blame it on a video I just watched about a puppy or something. And then there are days that Georgie's sweet face doesn't even help.
I will still be around on twitter and instagram, and hope to still see you all there. I'm probably going to keep the blog up for a week or two, then put it to private..I don't have the heart to delete her yet.
This blog has seen me through a lot of changes, and I'm sure would be able to wait until I make it out on the other end of these too. I just can't. and I hope you understand.
This is the final post on Sweet Nothings. I have thought long and hard about the whys, but I just cannot commit to this blog anymore.
I need to go and do me. Figure out what I am and who I am and who I will allow to be a part of the journey. I've been neglecting the close circle of friends I have and I have probably been a terrible employee. My health is deteriorating..I haven't slept in a month, and when I do, I have terrible nightmares. I've pushed people away who don't deserve it, and beg others who have no place in my life to stay. I've cried so much, I ignore what the tears mean. It's just a reflex these days, at times, I don't even realize it is happening, but tears will just be streaming down my face at my desk. I blame it on a video I just watched about a puppy or something. And then there are days that Georgie's sweet face doesn't even help.
I will still be around on twitter and instagram, and hope to still see you all there. I'm probably going to keep the blog up for a week or two, then put it to private..I don't have the heart to delete her yet.
This blog has seen me through a lot of changes, and I'm sure would be able to wait until I make it out on the other end of these too. I just can't. and I hope you understand.
